A Serial Monogamist and an Insomniac.
That's all you need to know.





Thursday, December 10, 2009




I cannot be around you, for now. You make me feel small and insecure about myself. So I'm leaving you for awhile, to be around others who make me feel beautiful.

Look at the mirror, why don't you?




2:36 PM

Wednesday, December 09, 2009




My timetable for Sem. 2. Can I get a hell yeaaaaaah?



Even if it is just for the month of January since Feb-May will see me in Practicum, 3 day week FTW. Sweeeeeeet :D Gonna milk it for all it's worth.




2:37 AM

Monday, December 07, 2009




In the first your friend H and I were at BurgerKing. He ordered a set for me. With fries. No drinks. We sat facing each other. I asked him how it went. "7 hours? How do you run non-stop for 7 hours? Wow", I remember myself saying. He shrugged and gave a smile.

I got up and out, across to McDonalds. Saw my old students at the counter, J.B and two others in uniform. "He's so tall now", I thought. Slipped back out and back into BK.

We sat there in comfortable silence, talking about random, easily forgettable things. You came in, with a big board in your hands, Sofia trailing after. Sat next to me, laid the board out. I remember seeing an old camera and other odds and ends on it.

"Do we have to trace it?"

"Yes", you replied. Gruffly, bothered, slightly out of breath. In your navy blue striped polo.



* * *

I woke up and rang you. Sean Kingston's 'Beautiful Girl' came on in my ear. "Must be using his mother's line", I thought. I remember sitting next to the window, trailing it, leaving rust in my hands.

"Hello?" You answered. We started to talk, but your voice drifted on and off again.

"Hello? Hello?"


* * *

I opened my eyes. The sound woke me. Rushing rushing... thundering down, from distant places to here. Such a rush. I heard the pounding of feet running, shutting the windows.




1:31 PM




If you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
- Marilyn Monroe




1:22 PM




I'm 24, I'm young, pleasant looking enough, smart, witty, adventurous, still fit, sporty, passionate about most things, has a stable job and most importantly, still has got the capacity to love.

If this doesn't work out, I'm taking 3 months max to mourn. And then you can bet the next big adventure will come knocking at my door and I will be off, sailing with the wind and its bearer.


Just like how it has always happened.




3:50 AM




I don't think anyone understands how much this is affecting me and my decisions for the future. There are things that you can accept, talk about, make compromises on, and there are things can't be dealt with that way.

Is it too late to stop.


If you think trust is our issue, breaking it is an even bigger one. If you want me to learn to trust you, here's a thought- Don't make promises and then blatantly break it. You're not helping yourself.




2:32 AM




Two strikes. A third, and you're out.




12:13 AM

Sunday, December 06, 2009




I can't help but think that among my different groups of friends, the drama girls- the Perempuan Simpanans, are the ones with the most potential. I have never met individuals who are so driven, witty, smart, among all other adjectives, good and bad. Put them in a group and magic happens.

Just like the impromptu Batam trip in '08, just like our briefly-planned meetups. Things get done, things happen. We have an editor, banker, teacher, the pro-PAP, the artist, the promising students...

When we have our meetups, and I am seated there surrounded by these ladies, I feel anything that we decide to do, the next project, the next trip, whatever, becomes so easily attainable. Sure we all have our issues and we share them... but that doesn't diminish how I see them. So... powerful.


It's a good feeling.




12:36 AM

Saturday, December 05, 2009




There's nothing better than the holidays; where you can do Nothing, yet Everything that you want. :D

Jogja trip is pending... no more rooms available in hotels there! :( Gotta think of a plan B then... oh well, have a good weekend everyone.

p/s: such gorgeous weather!




10:09 PM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009




We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.

To quote from Whitman,

"O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless--of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life? Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse." That the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse.

What will your verse be?

- Keatings, DPS.




1:38 AM

Monday, November 30, 2009




It was 2am, we were walking along the road after the movie, cars were zooming past and December nights are always so cold and windy. You were walking beside me, you took off your jacket and silently, gently put it around my shoulders, to keep me warm.

Just like that. ♥





3:30 AM

Thursday, November 26, 2009




Ladies and Gentleman,

School is officially over. Us post-grad students didn't need to sit for exams (eat your hearts out), last assignment done and submitted, today's the last day of school, Lit. class party later, and most importantly,


47 DAYS OF FREEDOM!


School resumes only on the 11th of January 2010. Ahh...such a beautiful number, 2010. I've made plans right till the first week of December and as I type, my mind's catapulting with all sorts of wondrous possibilities of things to do and places to go.


Hmm. What mischief should I get myself into?




Bye suckers!




2:56 AM

Wednesday, November 25, 2009




It's been a long time coming.......



Dear Officer,

1. We refer to the disbursement of the Study Grant to eligible officers of your cohort, including yourself.

2. We apologize for the delay in the payment of the Study Grant and we thank you for your continued patience as we sought to rectify the issues. We have since resolved the issues involved in the delay and are pleased to inform you that the payment transactions have already been processed and confirmed. You may look forward to receiving the grant by the Dec 09 payroll.


KACHINGZ!

Let's just hope there'll be the year-end bonus to boot.




2:57 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009




"The lesson plan should give literature students an idea of the author's contribution to Singapore literature and how the issues/themes/topics discussed in the work may be examined in the light of key social or historical events in Singapore."


Rafaat Hamzah or Alfian Sa'at?




1:10 AM

Monday, November 23, 2009




Blog post #1515

In my current state busy with the last lap of assignments and essays, last Monday, 16th Nov '09 slipped my mind.



When we first met a year ago, 16/11/08.

:)




5:47 PM

Sunday, November 22, 2009




I miss Haron Clan. Really can't wait for the KL trip. All of us need a break, especially the 6 of 'em. We're all they've got. Family.




4:04 AM